Hard Life & Spring is Coming!

I would be lying if I said that this lifestyle is not hard. I would be dishonest if I said it was not a struggle at times...and even downright discouraging.

However, in the time that we have been doing this...in spite of some very negative things that have happened, we have seen Yahweh/God moving within us and for us. We have been changed and have learned to be content with a lot less in this world. Does that mean that we don't want more? NOPE! Does it mean that we won't appreciate receiving more at some point? Not at all!

There are things we struggle with, but we have come to a point of being able to accept that this is God's will for us at this point in time. He is using this time and this way of living to refine us and to draw us closer to Him. He is changing our hearts...making them more like Yeshua/Jesus' heart. I know that, for me, I have a LONG way to go in that area.

I sit here listening to scriptures being read over soft music, feeding my spirit and soul. I know that I do not spend near enough time in the love letter that our Abba wrote to us. I need to feed my spirit and soul on God's words to me just as much as I need to feed my body on healthy food and water.

As I look out the window at the sunshine and the budding trees, I am reminded that spring is on its way. A new season is dawning outside; and there are seasons of the heart, too, I believe, and of life. My family has been through some dark, cold winters of life in the last several years. We were hit with some hard things.

Yet, through it all, Yeshua was right there with us. He says He will never leave us or forsake us; and He was certainly true to His word. Even when we felt abandoned by churches there were those in the body who listened to the Spirit and reached out to us. It is kind of funny. The help we got during those times usually came from the most unexpected sources.

Isn't that part of life and learning to trust in God? He works in ways we do not expect and through people we do not expect. Through all of this, we have simply learned not to expect...from people anyway. We have learned to trust in Yahweh to provide according to what He knows we most need. And if we have to do without, then that must be what we most need at that time. I have seen Him talk to people and tell them to reach out. I have seen people offer what we have not asked for or expected.

I want to live in the expectation that He will meet all of my true needs. I want to watch and see how He does it, with no expectations. I want to walk through this life knowing that I am secure in His arms. And I want others to see His light shining through me in the attitude I have about life and living.

I want His light to be visible in my life just as the sunshine is so visible outside. I look forward to the spring of my heart, just as I do the spring of the earth. I look forward to seeing new growth budding forth, both in the plant life and in my own heart and life.

Yahweh is good!